so the new year is here, finally.

day five.

almost a week in.
i appeal to get back into school tomorrow, and as much as i've been looking forward to it, i've become nervous.
to stand in front of a bunch of strangers, only to list my fuckups to them.
bleck.

i'm still enjoying being free. a single, free bird lady.
i still haven't stopped smoking ciggies.
one can quit smoking everyday, youknow.
whatevs.

it is eighteen degrees outside.
the cable guy is here. [parents house]
all i wanna do is shower and flee back to murfreesboro.
i love my roomie and our little house, but it's definitely smothering me.
i need so so much more room to function properly, really.

my coffee is getting chilly.
i need some income.
please, dear God, let this year be my year.
i know You won't let me down.