cause i'm always late;

THE NEW YEAR IS ALMOST UPON US! yessssss.

i wish my daddy would go to sleep so i may have a smoke before i lay my head to wait on santee claus.

christmas eve baby.

sitting at home sweet home.
about to enjoy a late dinner.
everything is so calm here.

i hope my attitude is better tomorrow.




merry christmas to all, and to all a good night<3

so, today is yet another new day.

i feel so fresh and clean and ready for new new new.

nashville might be my date tonight, and i'm into that.

cherry cherry, boom boom:

boy, we've had a real good time, and i wish you the best on your way.

there's nothing else i can say.

laziest day everrrr.

so yummy.

also, fell in love with lady gaga today. ooops?

"people go from loving you madly, to nothing at all. nothing.

it hurts so much.

when i feel someone is going to leave me i have a tendency to breakup first,

before i get to hear the whole thing.

here it is.

one more,

one less,

another wasted love story.

i really loved this one."

--2 days in paris

trying a new routine.

i'm feeling very confident today.

tired, but confident.

it's just gonna be BBY and me today. hanging out. being best buds.

something new.

happy saturday.

it's so dreary & i'm into it.

my tummy hurts today.

anyways, i'm so over boys. i mean, i love them but i haven't been single in little over two-years. WTF. that's too long. i need to find myself, but i can tell already that i just took a huge step onto the right track.

as i was drunkenly sobbing, shane did not even comfort me. he didn't touch me.

plus, how are you gonna dump someone while they're drunk? i thought i was going to get lucky; and i got dumped. it's totally laughable though. because i did get lucky that night.

yeah, it's overwhemling, but i just see so many little things about "us" that were not right. that were, in my head one way; but totally different in real life.

i deserve better. i really do.

i'm really really am falling in love with myself. it's fucking ME TIME. and i couldn't be more excited.

hello, december.

i feel so calm and open-hearted lately, well the past three days.

it's as if something "clicked" in my brain. an epiphany.

i'm falling in love with myself.

[typewriterblues.tumblr.com]

so we're bound to linger on:

where to start;

my life has been so redundant lately. i feel like even the people of the city i've called "home" for four years now do not hold enough drive for me to remain.

SOMETHING HAS GOT TO GIVE.
why can't i catch a break these days?
i don't mean to whine.
but i'm whining. bigdeal.


rutrut rut rut rutrutrutrut rut rut rut rut rutrut.

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the 14 karat gold wrapped around my finger;
the swirls of filigree & perfect oval shape.
such a old, dear friend of a ring;
once belonging to my grandmother.
it justsohappens to sit next to my very first ring.
light blue topaz; small enough for a five year old hand.
these rings have no idea how much love i hold inside my aching heart.

i find myself numbing out of the everyday routine,
only to study the glimpses of light flickering through-

sometimes what looks like a disappointment to us is really God positioning us to go to a new level.




mhmm.

are birthday's happy?

we've never only been just friends;

boooo murfreesboro, boo.

horoscopes are weird:

Virgo (Aug 23 - Sep 22)

It's tough to make a job-related decision today, for when you get to the fork in the road, you want to travel both paths. Yet even if you put off your final judgment for a few days, you know that you cannot avoid the act of deciding what your future is going to be like. The choice is ultimately yours, so take your time and consider all the options before making any long-term commitments.

oh, my baby BABY:

A PRAYER FOR TODAY

Heavenly Father, today I choose to lift up my eyes of faith toward You. Thank You for surrounding me with Your goodness and mercy. Thank You for believing in me and for preparing a good future for me. Fill my heart with Your peace and confidence as I continue to trust You in every area of my life. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.

"and i pray to God that you won't come back here anymore."
-m.o.


i always feel like i should go up to her. tap her on her familiar shoulder. tell her my thoughts. how i feel.
but, i know that one can't get through to someone who knows everything already.
one can't get through to someone who doesn't want to, who won't, listen.

so i continue about my daily routines, pretend those cells that she possesses don't even exist.



same person, different dimensions; she fucking wishes.

The Importance of Character:

When wealth is lost, nothing is lost; when health is lost, something is lost; when character is lost, all is lost.

a happy list:

1. seeing the sun today.
2. knowing that i can talk to God about anything and he will still love me.
3. my rings. all of them, mm.
4. my mother's love for me.
5. my baby dog.
6. the fact that these ten "happy's" are pouring out quickly. there's always so much to be thankful for.
7. SHANE.
8. 12:34
9. my desktop bkground.
10. the long hairs on my head.

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love.

it's funny how some nights turn out.

i'm the best.

i finally! got a sausage mcgriddle today.
best breakfast ever.

also, waking up to VH1 classic videos isn't half bad either;

little eyes:

my breaths are short and sparse these days.
i need a new air in my lungs. a fresh breeze.

the town i've called home for four years now; well, it's becoming very claustrophobic.
the places i used to dance and prance around at are being dominated by new faces. familiar faces.
familiar in the worst way. i'm not sure how to break this heavy heart.

but it needs to be broken.
it's weighing on me in the most hateful way.
holding grudges against girls that don't. even. matter.

i need a release.

first choice: